Letters To God !
Date : 22-11-2016
Letter No : 02
My Dear God !
Again, I pray with prostration into your most exalted lotus feet
and also wish to disclose some other significant feelings of my
this simple heart that has been very colourful for a long span of time in my this very life. As you provided me so much internal
power with various innate talents, I also wished to make myself a worthy son of India by making myself like a shining bright star on this resplendent earth. But due to being victim of delusive paws of Maya, I became confused and deviated from the right path as well as being weak in memory and lazy or inactive frequently, I lost my right goal of life.
When I was a promising student and came out like a brilliant star after getting my matriculation passed in first division with distinction in Biology (81%) and 72% in English, truly I had so many wonderful hopes in my life to make it colourful with many many extraordinary successes of life. But my fate became really tremendously unfortunate when I saw myself in miserable poor surroundings. Even if It was not so that everything before it was very favourable but thereafter my all work began to deteriorated due to extreme agony of that period of time. My all dreams for getting my education became dark or blank due to utter denial of economic assistance from my familial resources. And you know all about it that what an extent I was sad and hopelessly helpless for making my future bright and useful in accordance with my long cherished desires of this life.
You know my Lord that I wish to get my education to some very big heights but I never got amply agreeable circumstances in my this life to get my learning properly in ease. My all near and dear ones including relatives and friends became adverse and hurdles with so many obstructions on the path of my education life. Not only this, my love life also became bad to worse due to my that hard situation of singularly strange life equations. That's why I got so much pain in botheration that I could pass my 10+2 in next
year 6 years. Really this was very painful for me but much more painful of it was my stoppage of getting education after a year in 1993 and it became a very long period of a decade approximately when again I decided to restart my education in 2003 and could to something a very little bit due to having existed so many bad things with financial struggle as fighting alone to survive on this earth to live and feed myself in many difficulties.
My dear lord ! You know all about it that even today I have been fighting regularly being stand alone with sufficient amount of courage and iron will to win this life war for myself to prove and manifest my all latent talents before the whole world. You know that I had no house for myself and I have to stay at the home of my eldest brother whenever I come here at my native place but really I do not like it to live in such a miserable human life. So, my God, kindly make me able to afford for making my own house shortly so that I can live my life in a dignified manner. My brothers have not given me even an iota of my share after selling one Bigha land in the name of my old mother. In the real sense, it is not a justice and You are the lover of justice but here as You know well about it that nobody here is in my favour to give assured to get my share soon so that I can build my small house or so. You know that today I have to ask even only 50 Rs. from an acquainted owner of a Mall or Mart. Of course, it is not good for my self respect or so but I have become very habitual to face such strange situations of life. I know that when I will reach home today, I will not have even only 10 Rs. and today I wish to go for some distant place so that I can reach Punjab till 25 of this month to take part in Rafi Nights programme on 26, that is the date most probably of late famous singer Mohammad Rafiji. I am happy to get invitation there to participate with singing a song of
late Shri M. Rafiji. Last year I also got chance to sing there but could not sing due to proper sufficiency of time to rehearsal but I enjoyed it very much as an audience.
My Dear Lord ! You are an absolute power of this world and known as Almighty, that is to say, able to do everything possible for everyone, so please do not do delay at this very crucial span of time in my individual life. I make assure that I will make utmost good use of my this wonderfully great human life. Thanks a lot.
Sincerely yours
Gyanendra Singh
( Kavi Gyani Hindustani )
www.kavigyanihindustani.blogspot.com
Date : 22-11-2016
Letter No : 02
My Dear God !
Again, I pray with prostration into your most exalted lotus feet
and also wish to disclose some other significant feelings of my
this simple heart that has been very colourful for a long span of time in my this very life. As you provided me so much internal
power with various innate talents, I also wished to make myself a worthy son of India by making myself like a shining bright star on this resplendent earth. But due to being victim of delusive paws of Maya, I became confused and deviated from the right path as well as being weak in memory and lazy or inactive frequently, I lost my right goal of life.
When I was a promising student and came out like a brilliant star after getting my matriculation passed in first division with distinction in Biology (81%) and 72% in English, truly I had so many wonderful hopes in my life to make it colourful with many many extraordinary successes of life. But my fate became really tremendously unfortunate when I saw myself in miserable poor surroundings. Even if It was not so that everything before it was very favourable but thereafter my all work began to deteriorated due to extreme agony of that period of time. My all dreams for getting my education became dark or blank due to utter denial of economic assistance from my familial resources. And you know all about it that what an extent I was sad and hopelessly helpless for making my future bright and useful in accordance with my long cherished desires of this life.
You know my Lord that I wish to get my education to some very big heights but I never got amply agreeable circumstances in my this life to get my learning properly in ease. My all near and dear ones including relatives and friends became adverse and hurdles with so many obstructions on the path of my education life. Not only this, my love life also became bad to worse due to my that hard situation of singularly strange life equations. That's why I got so much pain in botheration that I could pass my 10+2 in next
year 6 years. Really this was very painful for me but much more painful of it was my stoppage of getting education after a year in 1993 and it became a very long period of a decade approximately when again I decided to restart my education in 2003 and could to something a very little bit due to having existed so many bad things with financial struggle as fighting alone to survive on this earth to live and feed myself in many difficulties.
My dear lord ! You know all about it that even today I have been fighting regularly being stand alone with sufficient amount of courage and iron will to win this life war for myself to prove and manifest my all latent talents before the whole world. You know that I had no house for myself and I have to stay at the home of my eldest brother whenever I come here at my native place but really I do not like it to live in such a miserable human life. So, my God, kindly make me able to afford for making my own house shortly so that I can live my life in a dignified manner. My brothers have not given me even an iota of my share after selling one Bigha land in the name of my old mother. In the real sense, it is not a justice and You are the lover of justice but here as You know well about it that nobody here is in my favour to give assured to get my share soon so that I can build my small house or so. You know that today I have to ask even only 50 Rs. from an acquainted owner of a Mall or Mart. Of course, it is not good for my self respect or so but I have become very habitual to face such strange situations of life. I know that when I will reach home today, I will not have even only 10 Rs. and today I wish to go for some distant place so that I can reach Punjab till 25 of this month to take part in Rafi Nights programme on 26, that is the date most probably of late famous singer Mohammad Rafiji. I am happy to get invitation there to participate with singing a song of
late Shri M. Rafiji. Last year I also got chance to sing there but could not sing due to proper sufficiency of time to rehearsal but I enjoyed it very much as an audience.
My Dear Lord ! You are an absolute power of this world and known as Almighty, that is to say, able to do everything possible for everyone, so please do not do delay at this very crucial span of time in my individual life. I make assure that I will make utmost good use of my this wonderfully great human life. Thanks a lot.
Sincerely yours
Gyanendra Singh
( Kavi Gyani Hindustani )
www.kavigyanihindustani.blogspot.com
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